Trials...

Today my load feels particularly heavy. Uncanny how just a few hours can change things. I'm really at a loss for words, but I feel like writing it all down. Strange. I know in this life we'll all eventually face trials that will test our strength. Some will face trials that will be harder than others', but they will be trials regardless. Today I feel like I am at the base of a mountain. I'm sure because it's all new to me, one day I'll look back and realize how insignificant this is in the grand scheme of life. But today is today and it's been tough to swallow or hard to hear, if you will. I'm trying to be happy. The tears of reality are dry now and all I can do is wait for more news. This is all sounding too serious when really it's not. Promise. Just tough. I love that my Mom was with me to help me smile and buy Oreo bark to drown my sorrows (mm..). I love that my sisters were home to help me laugh and figure out all the positive and fun that will come out of this and I especially love that Jake wouldn't acknowledge my sadness and proceeded to tease me. Really, I needed it. He's the best. I'm actually smiling as I write this, wouldn't you know. The load already feels lighter...